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Post by TemperaryUserName on Jun 8, 2003 21:46:17 GMT -5
Hello friends. Some(or none) of you are probably wondering why I removed Smoke's diary for modification. Well, inside I didn't really enjoy writing it. I was happy with the result, cause it was funny in it's own way. But as good as the idea was, my heart wasn't in it, and that affected my work. So... ... I'm starting a series of chronicles titled "Travels in the Desert." This isn't a diary or journal, it's simply the thoughts and mental meditation in the mind of Smoke. In the sequel to my fanfic, Smoke is scounting out The brothers of the shadow in the outworld desert, and since I don't have time to throw in every thought and detail he had during his journey, I'll include his pondering in this forum. I hope you guys like it. Although it is void of any humor or comic relief, at least I can write it from the soul. The next reply will be the actual part 1. Enjoy, guys.  |
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Post by theeldergodofice on Jun 8, 2003 21:49:04 GMT -5
No, the next post is: this sounds cool
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Post by TemperaryUserName on Jun 8, 2003 22:27:22 GMT -5
Travels in the Desert pt. 1: Automation
I don't remember much before I regained consciousness. Images, mostly. Sight was one of the only senses that stood with me during my trance as a cyborg. I can't recall the order I viewed the occurences, or emotions that were evoked in the experiences. I close my eyes and concentrate on those dark moments, but pictures and feelings appear randomly in my mind. I viewed those times in the same way a child would view a nightmare. Confusing and frightful, yet oddly sureal. I doubt I will ever fully conjure those events, and still I am unsure if I desire to. After all, the pain did not arrive until my soul returned to reality.
It was then that I understood true torment. My eyes begin to water as I remember awaking to the agony of having the cold metal encasing my bones, and dark oil flowing through my artificial vains. I must have been in that state for weeks, but without a soul I could not have recognized what was happening. Whether it was Subzero's voice or presence that finally roused my soul, I'm not sure. Through digital monitors, I saw my ally examining my body on the ground, while completely oblivious of where I was or what had just occured. Those latter days as a cyborg stand out like foreboding towers in my memory.
Perhaps what may have been even more horrifying was the automation itself. No drug or anesthesia was given to me to alleviate the situation. The first thing I felt was the tubes being injected into my flesh. Then the electrical hum started to raise in volume, and I saw the blood drain from my body. I passed out, but the temporary peace didn't last. I woke up to the agony of metal plates being nailed into the raw flesh of my arms. I looked down further to see two men weaving cables and wires into the tissues of my legs. The last thing I saw was a large mass of metal being pushed onto my face. If you could consider the bloody front of a skull a face, that is. Everything went dark and again I lost consciousness.
I refuse to compare the misery of my past experiences, but nor can I allow myself to forget them. I've accepted the sorrow and anger as my fuel, and without it I may be consumed with the fear I've been trying to hide from all this time. It's hard to say what I'm scared of. Being automated again, maybe. Or maybe just the very thought of this happening to someone else. Now that I think of it, Subzero was mearly inches away from being transformed along with me.
I won't dwell on this any longer. I must face this monstrosity within, but I have not the strength to do it now. I hope that the future will provide me with all I need to overcome those dark days. It is far to difficult now.
-inner thoughts of Smoke
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Post by theeldergodofice on Jun 8, 2003 22:31:00 GMT -5
Great, cant wait for the rest!
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Post by TemperaryUserName on Jun 8, 2003 22:49:44 GMT -5
Great, cant wait for the rest! Thanks, man. ;D I edited it a little to remove some grammar mistakes and to make some ideas clearer. My work usually doesn't get finished till days after I'm done writing it. |
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Post by Nemesi on Jun 9, 2003 3:53:24 GMT -5
That's really great Temp.  It'll be great when finished! |
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Post by BloodyEyes on Jun 9, 2003 11:54:31 GMT -5
Excellent
can't wait for the rest
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Post by TemperaryUserName on Jun 9, 2003 13:25:06 GMT -5
Thanks guys. I hope to have another posted tomarrow. |
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Post by Yanden on Jun 25, 2003 21:31:40 GMT -5
Temp. Always love to see you're work. Its fantastic.
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